I couldn't finish my thoughts last time. I started on a big idea but couldn't get the thoughts out before I ran out of steam. The ideas that generated those thoughts is fading and therefore the impetus to write about it. And thank god. I became aware recently that I am tired of suffering. Maybe the only way for it to stop is for me to give up. I began to wonder if I'm ready for that yet.
I think I have accepted that my life will be shorter than originally expected. We talk about travel or vacations and i stop myself before I have to say "if I live that long."
I am also just plain tired; i mean sleepy. i'm going to hit the hay as my dad always used to say. I just couldn't leave this thought from last time unfinished.
About Me
- Dr. Bif
- I'm a 43 year old allergist/immunologist living in Rochester, NY. I have two young boys, one of whom is autistic. I have had recurrent ovarian cancer for five years. For many years I have played the viola but not too much recently. I'm working on expanding my vegetable garden gradually to take over the whole lawn.
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